Archive for June, 2010

Fame Monster Mashup

June 29, 2010

my brain exploded from listening to this


rude alejandro

June 29, 2010



June 29, 2010

Walk Away- Ben Harper

June 19, 2010

too lazy to link it. sleeplessness= unproductive

just a tibit

June 19, 2010

quote by Friedrich Nietzsche that reads “And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music”.

love this, want to remember it, dont have a piece of paper to write it down

people in your life?

June 12, 2010

i don’t know if i can say if i have met anyone extraordinary. except for this girl i met when i was 11? i believe it was. i don’t know, she’s been my best friend for a while but then shit went down. she wasn’t a cause, just involved in it and it was just easier for me to separate myself from her, along with the problem completely. she didn’t deserve that. i know this. i’m not sure she cares either, mostly because nothing was her fault so she should.. right? if i’m the one being a jerk she shouldn’t feel bad. anyways i was on facebook and i saw a picture of her and her boyfriend, and it was adorable, i wanted to “like” it.  but i think that would require explanations and time and talking. none of which i feel like doing or have time for. anyways i was just thinking about shit at work today, thinking about that question “is the juice worth the squeeze?”. and i feel like i’ve been asking myself that a lot lately. are taking all of these classes worth it because i may not get a good grade in any of them? is the promotion at work worth losing time to study? are holding onto old friend with the mental strain of not being able to see them when i always want? i don’t know. i don’t know to any of it. and as for the friends question do they want me back in their life? did they care that i was gone? would they care? and the answers to those i’m not sure i want to know, they scare me too much. but i thought i was done letting people leave my life you know? i thought i had out grown the stage of me simply kicking people out of my life. it frustrates me that i can do it so easily, except for this one boy. i tried talking to him because he said he still wanted to, so why am i putting in all the effort. we haven’t talked in a week. that’s good though, he is a distraction. i’m more productive when i haven’t been talking to him. and then he texts and everything comes crashing down. why is that? i think it’s because i care or cared? weird how that shit fucks you over. i like you LOL JK imma date this other chick. so why keep me around? i want him though, i wanted to hang out with him. too bad so bad oh well. guess he had me fooled.

i’m not really sure what the point of this was but i didn’t feel like writing it down. this is why it’s being posted on my blog that no one knows about. oh i just remembered something…okay well dear person who is referred to in the first part who knows about this blog, yes that part was about you, i wish i could talk to you but i’m not sure if you want me to or if you care but i’m going to text you when i have time to care about our friendship..i kinda miss you. that is all i guess :/

i love you?

June 6, 2010

i’m going to start doing the guy thing where when i say ” i love you”, i mean that moment. i dont mean the girl “i love you” which means forever.  that’s kind of fucked up right?


June 5, 2010

i always tell sarah “you will never disappoint me”. someone posted this on facebook, i really love this

“Nothing you become will disappoint me; I have no preconception that I’d like to see you be or do. I have no desire to forsee you, only to discover you. You can’t disappoint me.” ~Mary Haskell

classy tattoo

June 2, 2010